Not Everything Needs to be Fantastic

Ugh, y’all. I’ve hit a bit of a slump. A metaphorical wall. A point where I just want to sleep and read and watch reruns of Law & Order. I totally ship Amanda and Carisi, by the way. Needless to say I haven’t felt like doing any painting/art journaling.

When I get like this I sometimes wish I didn’t feel anything. I think, to be numb, that’d be great. Of course that wouldn’t be good either. But sometimes…

I become really down on my life and my work and I get pretty fed up with myself. I wonder why am I like this? I have no reason to feel this way. So why do I?

It’s here that I need to remind myself that it’s okay to feel this way sometimes. It’s okay to take a time out. It’s okay to just read on a Sunday afternoon. It’s okay to not create anything for a few days. It’s okay to watch video after video of Bunny Meyer when you can’t sleep at night.

It’s important that we be gentle with ourselves, to give ourselves as much breathing room as we would someone else.  After all, we are sometimes hardest on ourselves.

But today, I began cleaning off my work table because in my “absence” it had become a catchall for other stuff. Like a bottle of concentrated liquid cleaner and my son’s allergy meds (don’t get those two mixed up!).

By taking that little step to clean off my desk, it made me want to get my hands painty. I ended up with lots of scraps that I didn’t want to toss. I might be a hoarder. I didn’t have any expectations on what it’d turn out like. And it’s a good thing, because it is kinda’ a hot mess. And that’s okay, not everything needs to be fantastic – in life and in art journaling.

As you can see, my desk doesn’t stay clean for long.

I haphazardly glued down the scraps, covering them with Titanium White and different inks as I went along.

The point is not perfection, the point is to do something. To get the juices flowing again. Because having a hodge podge mess is better than nothing at all.

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And I think Spring is letting up, so Yay! Summer is a-comin’.

Now for the winner of the giveaway! Didi congrats! I sent you an email!! 🙂 Thanks for entering everyone. I still have some stamps and other fun stuff in my Etsy shop if you missed it.

And always, a little music to get you through.


7 thoughts on “Not Everything Needs to be Fantastic

    1. My goodies arrived today!!! So exciting!! I took a picture and made a little video of the little journal to share on Instagram!! I’ve never actually seen one in person!! I LOVE it!!! And “joy” is my word for the year! Perfect!!

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  1. When you are in the “social media” spotlight as you are, I expect it is hard at times to feel creative and wonderful ALL the time…. I know that I don’t and I think it’s only human to have those days. Sometimes that dark cloud just shows up unexpected and I hate when it happens. So, be easy on yourself and allow yourself time off. It’s like all of us look forward to seeing things that you do every day and I imagine that would be like something continually being sucked out of you . Does that make sense? Sometimes the “demand” gets to great and it’s ok to step back and rest, read or whatever YOU feel like doing. Be kind to yourself 💓

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    1. Thank you for your kind words Lisa. And sorry I didn’t notice this sooner. But yes, that makes perfect sense. I want to create content, but I want it to be quality content and not just putting things out there for the sake of having something out there. I’m just trying to be patient right now. Thanks again. And thanks for reading. 🙂


  2. There must be a lot of pressure to create all the time when you’re in the spotlight as you are. I’ve been wondering where you were, because I really like your videos. And so you must be thinking about not wanting to make art and thinking about us and on and on and on. I think it;s totally OK to sit on the couch and watch TV for as long as you want. 🙂 And I think it’s totally OK to tell us that, too. Not that you have to, but it might take some of the pressure off. As always, love your work, and love your blog. Be good to yourself. 🙂


    1. Hello. Thank you for the comment and concern. 😉 I’m still creating just about every day but my video editor isn’t working so I haven’t been able to edit them. I’m always posting on instagram what I’m working on if you’re interested to check that out. Thanks again!


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